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So yeah, small rant, I really hate valentine’s day…. IDK why but it is sucky for me…. I love to call it singles awareness day even if I am included in the “singles” part of the saying… but you do have to be forewarned on the fact that if you don’t watch out looks of pity, looks of disdain, and the ever so popular looks of the “if you even look at him I will kill you on contact” looks that come from the so-called “Sweethearts” that are out and about on that day. Makes me want to be all I ain’t after your man! lol oh and the scene that would follow…. “What he ain’t good enough for you?” “Obviously not cuz he’s with you….” oh how the cat fight would begin! lol   There needs to be a buffer zone, and not a singles bar… something though…. Anything. The only part about S.A.D. that I like is that some of the movies that come on I actually like, but they only come on on Feb 14.  This year I will be at church in Toddlers which isn’t so bad… cuz of the kidos, they are hilarious, but, morning service is going to be killer…. sure my friends may have cards for me and that is always nice… lol but if I hear a “don’t worry there is a man out there for you somewhere….. or a Why so lonely or down in the dumps?” again I will scream…..

Don’t you just love how people mean to be nice and lift your spirits, but in fact they accidentally say the worst thing possible or in a weird way that makes you wonder what they are getting at? lol Its those days that I want to slam my head into a wall, cuz I am kinda tired of hearing it. lol  I want to be all will you kindly shut up! God has already talked with me about that situation and I am trying to be patient in that matter but you are making it extremely difficult to be steadfast in that decision because at this very moment I am praying for  God to send him through the door and to my side in the next second, so this person will just stop reminding me that I am in fact single! (Takes a deep breath lets it out slowly….)

At any rate, I celebrate being single on v-day, but secretly I am plotting my revenge to show up with a stranger attached to my arm and rubbing it in a few peoples faces, then slipping my new found friend a $20 as I walk out the door…. lol J/K that would never happen….(crap now I’ve revealed my plan…..)

So at youth Monday night, our youth pastor wanted us to write a letter to our future spouse and tell them our thoughts or what was in our hearts…. I had written, re-written, re-re-written the letter but it sounded so cold and distant, I am going through a lot right now, with my Granddad being sick and stuff, it is hard. Plus this was a letter to the person I love in the future….I don’t exactly know what he will be like… or how he will take the silly imaginings of a girl that at this moment is just in love with the thought that God has someone out there for me… I just don’t know… And to top all that off, In the middle of my re-write, my cousins come over, and we move to the living room and the eldest whom I call Kanicky, asked what I was doing and so I explained, and Dawny, the youngest of the two, thought that that was a neat Idea and that she might want to write one too, so then my brother gets home and we watch a movie. Keep in mind that I am writing this awkward letter, while watching the movie, and then my brother wants me to sew his jacket sleeve where it was torn…. I didn’t mind but it took me forever to find the right thread, and the needles… It did turn out well, and after it was washed, no one would be able to tell unless they looked for it… So I resigned myself to just finish the movie after twenty or thirty minutes of trying to start writing again…. lol So, After all that, dishes being done, walking my cousins back nextdoor, and some other stuffs, I sat in my room staring at the letters I was writing, and thought to myself, I have done this already in my journal, shortly after praying and having God speak to me on this matter, and I am thinking why is this so hard for me to write? This is to be a love letter… I am supposed to be in love… I had to think back to the time God spoke with me, I had to push the thought of My grandmother being on edge because her love’s health  is going down hill, and  my feeling of  guilt because, While I am writing this letter to gain My love’s affection, she won’t be able to be with her love much longer.

I did finally break through and write him a letter, Its crazy I started out with a poem that I had written, stupid I know, lol , but it was my breakthrough…. And so it was sealed, and placed in a very secretive place…. Only to be removed when I feel it is the best time to give it to him……Hopefully he won’t laugh…. but I will probably be laughing at myself the time he reads it….. Geez!

Thank the Lord he finished, because I was about to stand on my box and be all, “does a woman have to have a man with her at all times to be considered a real woman/person, just cuz I am a woman doesn’t mean I need a man with me at all times, and Just because I am single certainly doesn’t mean I am not looking and what is the reason behind your question anyway? AUGH!!!!

To him I looked lonely. My denial obviously points out that he was inevitably right, I hate that. My post Lonely in Gorgeous is simply that. In this most Gorgeous world that God has provided for us, I am probably the most lonely person I know. Even God knew Adam, creation even, needed Eve.

Why is it that I have to look for “him” anyways, backward way of thinking, Even in all fairy tales and love stories the guy has almost always had to find the girl at one point in the show. Nowadays, this only happens after the jerk finds out that he can’t live with out her and he has to try and get her back.
However, most guys that have tried to hit on me, very very few I can assure you, have ended up hurting my heart with every false hope.

I just don’t want to waste my time on individuals who think I am easy prey.

I only want one, if he is the right one, and where is all the drama and chaos about that?  He doesn’t have to be perfect, just a relatively clean individual that is on better terms with God than even I am.  Just a relationship where we can rely on each other to make up for what the other lacks.  A simple and Sweet love that will deepen and blossom with the years….. I suppose is too much to ask for.

Lonely? I reluctantly agree, right at this moment I am… Lonely in Gorgeous..

nothing else really to say right now. I think I am gonna upload another story to authonomy because I have more pages with this one and its been a hassle to get it uploaded…

Much Love and hugs!

Rose’s Thorn: As you see I put up a new story, it is a little different but I hope someone will at least like it. Any feedback would be good… *Hint Hint* I may in fact make another blog and just do it that way, though I will post the updates here as well….. Yeah I think I will…..

I am soooooo not into the social scene right now and it is not even cool. I mean I love all my friends but most of the ones I talk to are gone or are busy…. I would love a love interest right now, but…. as you can tell I have not met anyone and I don’t really go for the computer dating stuffs. I love to have letters written to me. This one person who will remain nameless forever on here, used to write me letters. I still have them, though right now I am not in the mood to look through part of the past chapters of my heart. It is not good to dwell in the past. I try not to unless I am remembering mom. Man I really miss her.
I had someone come to me at church ask me if I was alright and said they were praying for me cuz they were worried about me. I wanted to cry right there on the spot, but I didn’t.
Two of my friends were talking to me at church after that, It felt good to get a couple of hugs and some reassurance. I have felt so alone lately…. Though I know God is always with me…Its hard to explain…

Piano: I would love to learn to play the piano apart from the first two lines of Beethoven’s 9th symphony, lol though I love it.

Well, um, hmm, I don’t really know how to end this, so um….
Much love and Hugs to anyone who read this!

Nope he was not. its crazy I am in southern Oklahoma and we never see snow anywhere, just ice if that. lol and they are talking more snow tomorrow… Its insane… lol BTW: My granddad is finally home and eating better than b4…. I am sooo thankful! God is so awesome!

Immediately after the wedding – on Halloween, as it happens – Mortimer visits the bizarre relatives who still live there, his elderly aunts Abby (Josephine Hull) and Martha (Jean Adair) and his brother Teddy (John Alexander). Teddy thinks he’s Theodore Roosevelt; each time he goes upstairs he blows a bugle, yells “Charge!”, and takes the stairs at a run (an imitation of Roosevelt’s famous charge up San Juan Hill).

Mortimer finds a corpse hidden in a window seat and suspects Teddy, but his aunts explain that they are responsible They have developed the “very bad habit” of ending the presumed suffering of lonely old bachelors by serving them elderberry wine spiked with arsenic, strychnine and cyanide. The bodies are buried in the basement by Teddy, who believes he is digging locks for the Panama Canal and burying yellow fever victims.

To complicate matters further, Mortimer’s brother Jonathan (Raymond Massey) arrives with his alcoholic accomplice, plastic surgeon Dr. Herman Einstein (Peter Lorre). Jonathan is a psychotic murderer trying to escape the police and find a place to dispose of the corpse of his latest victim, a certain Mr. Spenalzo. Jonathan’s face, as altered by Einstein while drunk, resembles that of Boris Karloff in his makeup as Frankenstein’s monster. Jonathan, upon finding out his aunts’ secret, decides to bury Spenalzo in the cellar and soon declares his intention to kill Mortimer.

Mortimer makes increasingly frantic attempts to stay on top of the situation as his bride waits for him at her family home next door, including multiple efforts to alert the bumbling local cops to the threat Jonathan poses, as well as have the paperwork filled that will have Teddy declared legally insane and committed. He worries whether he will go insane like the rest of the Brewster family, or as he puts it “Insanity runs in my family, practically gallops!”. While explaining this to Elaine, he claims they’ve been crazy since the first Brewster’s came to America as pilgrims. But eventually Jonathan is arrested, while Teddy and the two aunts are safely consigned to an asylum. In the end, Mortimer is overjoyed to learn that he was adopted and is not biologically related to the Brewsters after all. He is actually the son of a sea cook, exclaiming: “Elaine, Elaine, Where are you? Can you hear me? I’m not really a Brewster. I’m a son of a sea cook!”

Hilarious as it is. It can be very crazy. I would love to see the play that it was adapted from. I love when Cary Grant begins poking the character of Jonathan in the leg with a fork.

Ah Cary Grant…. I love him, one of my favorite actors. So charming at times, as in That Touch of Mink with Doris Day, and in An Affair to Remember with Deborah Kerr. Or his wry sense of Humor very evident in Arsenic and Old Lace, and Monkey Business with Ginger Rogers and Marilyn Monroe. The first movie that I ever watched that made me fall in love with Cary Grant movies was Father Goose, with Leslie Caron, (another favorite as far as actresses are concerned, Daddy Long Legs and Gigi.) After that was Operation Petticoat with Tony Curtis.
It is so easy to sit and watch a Cary Grant movie. Its somewhat calming. Laughably so. lol

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